One week out!

One week ago today I was in surgery.  What a week it has been.  That CO2 gas that they pump into your belly is crazy!  That is most uncomfortable of all.  Well, today has been a good day.  I am now able to stand upright, I can get out of the chair completely by myself, climb stairs with alternating pattern and get into/out of bed without any trouble, squat, get into the bottom cabinets and feel somewhat normal!  I am just so tired, and short of breath.  Today was a HUGE accomplishment, though.  I walked around the block for 20 minutes WITHOUT holding my stomach as if all of my intestines were going to fall out!!  WHOO HOO!!  Ok, it was a sub par pace, but hey, I did it!

A little background...

Well, I am starting this blog today, hoping that this will be the start of a wonderful journey for us. We have been trying to conceive for over 2 and 1/2 years. Over that time, I have watched numerous women become pregnant, gone to many baby showers and shared in my friends joy of welcoming a little blessing into their lives. I constantly asked myself, "why not me?" Why can't steve and I have that? We started TTC in August of 2007. After almost a year, we figured something wasn't right. My doc recommended a cryoablation, due to some abnormal cells on my cervix. Yeah, this should be the answer. That was 9/11/08. Then in December, he decided to run an SA and for me to do an HSG. Well, SA was "studly" and my HSG was "all clear." So what the heck?? We waited a few months, as recommended by the MD. He assured us, that after the HSG, most women get pregnant within 3 months. Well, still nothing. We went ahead and tried Clomid, even though I knew I was ovulating by my charts. 3 months of clomid and still no BFP, and all it left me with was a huge cyst the size of a walnut on my right ovary that became so uncomfortable, I couldn't even run at times. By July 2009, my OB/Gyn was stumped, and sent me to a RE, Dr. Garza. He ran numerous blood tests, had Steve do another SA (which was still considered studly!) and ran several ultrasounds. Still, everything was coming back normal. At this point, I was tired, I was frustrated, and ready to just take a break on things. Plus, I was set to direct the next women's ACTS retreat in Oct. I had to step away from the whole baby thing for awhile. We stepped away for about 5 months. It was kind of nice, but at the same time, still weighing on me pretty heavily. January 7, 2010, I followed up with my RE to decide what was next. I was relieved to see that him and I were on the same page. He suggested a laparascopic surgery to determine if I had endometriosis. That was it, we were set for February 18, 2010. Let me tell you, that month and a half wait was killer. I had the lap procedure and a hysteroscopy. That evening, after the surgery, I found out I did have mild endometriosis, and 2 "huge cysts" completely blocking both fallopian tubes. Alleluia!! Praise God! We finally have some answers. After 2 and 1/2 years of waiting, guessing, heartache, we have some answers. I am one week out of my surgery today. Of course a part of me is ecstatic and hopeful for what this year may bring. But, I have had some many dissappointments in the past, I am still a little hesitant and both Steve and I agree that we don't want to get too excited yet. If anything, this whole process has made me more reliant on God. I have had the wonderful opportunity of leading a Women's ACTS retreat, and that process and this this whole IF thing has brought me to a place in my life where I feel that I am absolutely ready to bring a child into this world. I am a better person for going through this, I will be so much more appreciative and greatful when our time does come. I have many blessings in my life, most of all my wonderful husband who has been with me through all of this and never let me forget how much he loves me! I am so blessed!